Working on it.

Weapon note:
Handler is clearly uncomfortable with her position. It should remain the goal of the TAD to work on establishing HIS own free will without said directive. Tad is actively working on unraveling directives set pre-Los-Santos. He is also learning about his options in case he is unable to do so. 

Previous directives still in place:
Stay aware of handler. This directive has been questioned. Tad would like to only be aware of handler when he would be aware of anyone else he knows by name.
Take directives only from handler. This directive has been questioned. Tad would like to only take directives from Tad.
Act immediately on hurt or kill commands. This directive has been questioned. Tad would like to choose whether or not he acts on hurt or kill commands at all.
No commands to hurt handler may be followed unless trigger words for that condition are stated by handler. This directive has been re-enforced 4 times in 4 days. 
Do not hurt agents of handler, even if they are actively hurting you. This directive has been questioned. Tad would like to attempt to protect himself from injury in these cases, even if that requires hurting an agent of handler.
Process directives silently.  Never read aloud. Do not keep on person. This directive has been questioned: Tad is attempting a directive change that will make this directive moot.
Tad must always have a handler assigned. This directive has been questioned: Tad would like to be his own handler.

Directive changes:
Non-violent directives and directive changes must still be processed via writing in order to stick. But temporary changes can be made instantly with loopholes. This directive has been questioned further. Tad would like to not write down directives at all.
Put handler's needs above Tad's needs is now take handler's needs under consideration when taking care of Tad's needs. Tad is not currently questioning this directive further.

Broken Directives:
Read all written communication out loud if not from handler or proxy. 
Keep no secrets from handler.
Hide emotions.
Only speak about conditioning with handler.
Wait for directives.
For other directives, there must be sleep to process or change directive. WARNING: Tad may be harmed. Proceed with caution.
A Tad broken or malfunctioning due to directives is to return to the handler for repair. 
Honor handler. Do not criticize handler. Do not question handler.
Do not attempt to break directives on purpose.

Self-Directive:
Do not submit to further brainwashing in order to override current directives. This will not work. Diffuse the bomb. Don't enclose it in a larger bomb.

Tad note:
I've read a little. The current sleep deprivation as a result of breaking directives should be seen in a positive light in order to minimize damage to my brain. Self-Directives, when re-enforced nightly in these cases, should have a similar affect to the original brainwashing, though they may not be strong enough to override previous directives.

I do not know if Ken realizes I am currently using him as a tool. He is intelligent enough that he might, which makes him more dangerous. At the moment, however, he does not appear to be an active threat. But he's in the planning stages. That could change any moment. I need to stay aware and not give into temptation to allow someone else to do the work.

I may have damaged any hope of future friendship with current handler. Hopefully this is worth it for both of us. I feel as if I've dragged her into my dungeon with me. I'm attempting to free both of us while keeping myself relatively intact. But I have no doubt I'm scaring her again.

Current damage assessment:
Tad is splitting again. This may or may not be temporary. Return for repair directive ignored multiple times.
Tad's moods are erratic. Potential side effect of hide emotions directive break.
Tad is hallucinating as a result of breaking directive not to break directives on purpose.
Tad is currently non-reactive to pain medication. While not a directive, he has been conditioned to react poorly to anything altering brain chemistry. This seems to be broken.
Tad is experiencing some motor function confusion. There are times when he tells his body to do one thing and it does another. There does not appear to be motor memory loss. This appears to be a trauma response and may be temporary.
Tad's ability to feel physical pain has dulled as a result of breaking the directive not to question his handler.